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Post by Karma Kayla!! on Oct 1, 2007 18:08:31 GMT -5
There's a lot of personal shit getting in the way of RPing and I don't blame anyone from not wanting to be on here.
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Post by Bitter Suite on Oct 2, 2007 23:09:19 GMT -5
(I just need to say a few things.. very minor..) [To Kayluff]Kayluff.. I know you're not a cruel person, in fact the cold hard truth is you're quite actually very kind and caring at heart. Seeing you and john go at it like this... is shocking at best. I know you don't mean everything you're saying... and I'm sure he doesn't either. Friends fight, and even loved ones fight. Fighting just shows how strong you were in the beginning, to get into a fight.. cause if you weren't close.. you couldn't fight, see? [John]Yes.. we all know you hold grudges, and we cannot ask you to change that. It wouldn't be right of us. But.. would it be too hard to ... "Bury" your dislike for someone, so that the rest of us don't have to suffer..? (And it's not only you who this is about.. alot of people make it their goals to show their hate of someone else shine) [Katey] You're doing a good job.. lol don't let it all take too much toll on you. and thanks for including me in your rant, I feel special [Corie]You don't have to take time off... that's what the problem is.. everyone takes time off, and doesn't stick around to solve things. Not just you, (and I don't mean to call you out) But ALOT of people on here do that. Instead of avoiding the drama, why not take it head on.. and solve it? [Mike]So much things I want to say, but so many i can't. I just want to thank you for proving me wrong long ago, and for you know.. being a good referee(Sp)
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Post by Karma Kayla!! on Oct 3, 2007 17:15:38 GMT -5
Don't try to make me seem like some angel, Mikeluff, because I'm honestly not. I'm sick of people coming and going on this site. Bitching when they could be doing something. And quite honestly, it fucking hurt to hear Dimitri tell me that John's not gonna RP with me because he doesn't like me. I don't like Dimitri, but I RP with him.
Some people think I'm just a cold hearted bitch. Well, fuck you guys then.
And Corie, leaving isn't gonna solve a damn thing. It just shows that you left, again, because you don't try to help with any of the problems. You bail just like Garrett, John and Katie did. Honestly, that is what upsets me and that is why I'm angry.
I'm sick of seeing my "family" bailing on me. If any of you looked at my Myspace, you would see a nice little line in my "Au Sujet du Moi" section. It's my About Me section. Perhaps people should read once in a while. I hate to say it, but some family. Some fucking family.
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Post by Achtung Katie™ on Oct 3, 2007 18:11:26 GMT -5
Maybe because we've been trying to deal with the problems for, oh, I don't know, year, year and a half =/ I'm pretty sure I can only take so much before it just becomes hard to deal with, and not quite worth it anymore. That's the point I'm at right now, that's the point Corie's reached I'm sure, so...
Families take breaks to, it's not the end of the world. Everybody obviously needs to learn how to take a HUGE step back, put shit into perspective and THEN work on it. It's not gonna help if all anybody is, is stressed out, because they feel like they HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS ISSUE RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT OR LIFE IS GONNA FALL APART!11!!
Some of us don't need that kind of stress, so some of us are gonna step back for a moment or two. If we need to do that, then we need to do that, and you do not get to tell us that no, we can't.
Also, how do you go from "There's a lot of personal shit getting in the way of RPing and I don't blame anyone from not wanting to be on here" to...blaming us for not being here? Pick one or the other. It's fine if you're angry, I'm not exactly jumping for joy here, but don't flip-flop on the issue.
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Post by Karma Kayla!! on Oct 4, 2007 9:48:36 GMT -5
Well sorry if I feel insulted. It's not like you do anything either. You drag other ppl into the shti and it gets worse. So honestly, what good do you do either? You constantly bail, Katie. Everytime. You don't do anything to help anyone but yourself. Okay, maybe you'll help John. But you seem to like taking things people tell you and rub it in their face when they're already down. Oh...and then tell them that they're going to lose the only person that they care about more then anyone in the world. Right. I remember now.
At least I'm trying to fix things. I'm not standing back like..."Oh...drama. Whatev. BAI!". That's the shit that upsets me the most. I don't blame people for leaving, but it doesn't make me excited that people are bailing.
But wait...that's what some people do. And then there's a few ppl like me that stick around to try to fix what we fucked up. I don't have to, but I do because I fuck up a lot of shit. But it doesn't make things easier when the other ppl that fucked up shit aren't around to help solve it. So what good is doing anything? Oh, that's right. I care. Damn me for having a heart.
But I guess that doesn't matter anymore. The only people are going to do anything anymore are me, Mike and Katey. Doesn't it seem to be the same people all the time? I believe it does. And what makes everything better is, we've each got our own drama shit that we're going through. We've got personal drama, too. Oh, but wait. You plastered that shit on your SIT Diary. Right. I'm the disease. I forgot. *thumbs up*
At least I had the decency to keep any sort of rant I had for you off the internet. I had to use the excuse "God, it was HILLARIOUS!!!1!!!1!" so I didn't feel like shit for being a fuck up again. So honestly, just go back to your precious TNG. You've got Kat over there anyway. You're probably never going to RP here again because you don't want to deal with the drama. Then just go and just stop coming back.
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Post by Achtung Katie™ on Oct 4, 2007 15:19:50 GMT -5
EDIT: Actually, nevermind, all this is doing is perpetuating the argument, which I have no interest in doing.
Maybe we should just accept that we're not the same people we were 3 years ago, and the people we are now just don't really get along.
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Post by Bitter Suite on Oct 4, 2007 16:28:07 GMT -5
I don't mean to make you sound like an angel Kay, but you aren't a cold hearted bitch either..
and.. just because we're different, doesn't mean we still can't like eachother.
That's what family is about, accepting the good with the bad.. I'm living proof of that.
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Post by afr on Oct 4, 2007 18:32:43 GMT -5
thank you for that katie
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Post by Garrett on Oct 4, 2007 18:47:28 GMT -5
Can we just let it go, please?
I don't ask for you to give up, but this isn't the place to slaughter each other. We all have grudges. Don't dig them up here.
People who chose to leave have every right to do so. Simply because some of you wish to perpetuate this, and keep on trying doesn't mean that any of us were obligated to stay.
If we choose to leave, thats a personal decision that none of you can make for us. Dragging us into it just... I don't know. It seems awkward, to drag people who aren't looking at this into it.
Honestly, read this thread. From start to finish, without getting angry. If you can do that, then you are a saint. If reading this upsets you in any size, shape, or form, then you know how we feel. Slightly.
A lot of us were targeted in Katey's post. And not all of it was not deserved, don't misquote me. But this was not the forum for it. I responded harshly, and maybe a little immaturely. I didn't expound upon my philosophies and feelings about this place or you all. That gave you ample fire-power to blow holes in my theory. But honestly.
Let this go.
Either RP, or forget this thread exists. It doesn't deserve to be here. Right now, it's a cancer. And it's killing your "family"
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Post by Karma Kayla!! on Oct 5, 2007 6:34:43 GMT -5
I'd rather get it all out now before it builds up even more and explodes on another day another time. Keeping grudges isn't good for anyone and simply "letting it go" isn't going to solve one damn problem. This is between all of us personally. If we're going to fix anything, we better do it now before it's too late.
I personally would like to just get it all out now. So please, Katie, bitch about how a horrible person I am. Tell me that I'm not even worth the dirt you step upon each day because honestly, I'm not apologising to you. Corie, I apologise for the arguement over AIM, but I'm not sorry for what I said. John, I was harsh, but there's a reality here and you seriously need to let it hit you in the face. The reason you feel you're the doormat is because you place yourself in that position. Trust me, I know.
Just dealing and ignoring it isn't going to solve any personal problems. That, I hope, you all understand. I had to push my grudge aside to co-exist with Garrett. I had to physically talk to him in order to even estabish some neutral ground. If no one else can do that, then this RP is doomed to fail again and again.
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Post by Achtung Katie™ on Oct 5, 2007 10:59:51 GMT -5
Simply letting it all go would solve all our problems. It's not "forgetting" about it, it' "forgiving" it, which I am perfectly willing, and able to do. But since the rest of the world seems to have a problem with forgiving and forgetting, I feel rather alone in this. The best advice I have ever gotten was "the secret is letting go". Because if you hold onto it, and you let it ferment, all it does is make you angry, and miserable. I don't want to be angry and miserable.
I am willing to forgive and forget, but the problem here is, you won't apologize. All that shows me is a severe lack of maturity on your part, because guess what? Sometimes you do have to apologize. Sometimes you have to suck it up and be a better person. Because people are acting exactly like you are, that's why this RP won't go anywhere. All you are doing in the above is saying one thing, and contradicting it a moment later. Dealing with it, and then ignoring the bad blood WOULD be a way to work it out. But according to you, no, it's not? That doesn't make sense.
So, Kayla. I'm sorry. And I forgive you. And I mean that with every iota of my heart. I don't care if you accept my apology and let it go, or hold onto your grudges and let it fester, but I am apologizing, and I am letting go, and I feel better for it.
Your move.
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Post by Karma Kayla!! on Oct 5, 2007 16:33:14 GMT -5
I'm not apologising because I have nothing to apologise for.
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Post by Dimitri on Oct 5, 2007 19:16:53 GMT -5
Ha.
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Post by Bitter Suite on Oct 6, 2007 4:25:40 GMT -5
Was that really necessary?
We have enough problems as is, so please don't go adding flames to the fire.
(This post was directed to Dimitri btw)
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Post by Karma Kayla!! on Oct 6, 2007 10:40:12 GMT -5
You don't need to say anything to Dimitri. Now cause you did, he's gonna come back and be a pain in the ass. -____-;;
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Post by GDR on May 13, 2009 21:55:51 GMT -5
I just re-read this, and this is so damn old and depressing. I feel horrible, and yet subtlely more mature than I was nearly 2 years ago.
Even though some of the people aren't here to read it, I'd like to apologize for all that weird drama that went down in the past, not just here but in general. I was conniving. And I played it like a game. Maybe those of us that are left should work on becoming a family again?
~Sorry if this thread ressurection seems weird, but I had an epiphany whilst rummaging through old PMs and remembered all of this shit. And it's been eating at me for a long damn time, surprisingly.
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Post by afr on May 16, 2009 3:02:18 GMT -5
Well everything is going well now. People are still here, and people are happy. I really think you can't ask for much more then that, John.
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Post by Bitter Suite on May 23, 2009 16:46:41 GMT -5
It's a shame how far everything has gotten, blown out of preportion and what not.
Our once strong family, that started way back when, like 2003-2004 era, is now shattered. Everyone's filled with bitterness, and most of us hate each other.
It's quite a pity really, I almost laughed when I remembered that the SC planned to meet up in Fanime next year, since half the people who said they were going, now can't stand to talk to the other people over the phone, much less meet in person.
The SC was a good thing, it helped us all through our difficult times, where no one understood us, where we felt outcasted by people from where we live, troubled cause of parents, suicide thoughts, and feelings of not belonging...
and now look what it was turned into? A place for hate.
It's a shame, I can barely stand to read the old threads, because it just disgusts me. Sad to say, but I wish it can go back to the times where everybody hated me, that way everyone had an outlet for their anger, so at least everyone ELSE got along.
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Post by Achtung Katie™ on May 24, 2009 4:11:32 GMT -5
Seriously, go emo elsewhere, the SC has been basically drama-free for a year, soooooooo... who the fuck cares I'm in PARIS MOTHERFUCKER but yeah seriously stop bringing this thread up kthnx<3
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