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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 10:24:21 GMT -5
"I don't want her to be me. Back then there were twenty thousand things I wanted to change about myself. But now, thinking back on it, those were my strengths. I was never meant to lead. I never had the skill or tact. I still don't. But then again, I'm not me these days." She shrugged her shoulders simply. "I changed myself to fit the role. And I hate it."
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 10:34:51 GMT -5
He looked to her... "Maybe you should tell her that too... what you have been saying to her just gave her more reasons to hate who she is now. It breaks my heart when she outright loses her love for herself... because she's a wonderful person. Maybe if I was a better person I could show her that... I know well that it's not me who will get her to see it. I wish I was, but I'm not." He folded his hands together. "I don't want her to slip into this role, but I want her to be happy in the role she's got too. She just isn't. Like her namesake... she could be painful to the touch if you take it too fast, but fragile and beautiful at the same time if you are careful enough to get her. That's one of those regrets of mine right there... I grabbed her too fast and hurt us both."
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 10:37:54 GMT -5
"I want to push her to not be where she is. This silly emotional rut she's in. It's not doing anything for her. It sure as hell didn't help me any." !Rose shook her head and leaned over her knees again. "But I don't want her to lose that emotion. I want her to work harder. To be stronger. I waited to god damn long to kick my ass back into gear. And for that, I lost part of my sight. She's going to end up the same if she doesn't fix herself and fast."
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 10:50:17 GMT -5
AFR nodded... "She has something you don't... her best friends to keep her powerful. There is no way me and Kat are going to let her be without us a second time. I saw what happened... the diplomatic talks gone to hell... we will not be as foolish this time." His hand patted her shoulder once more. "she will have plenty of reasons to keep in this standing and even more to become everything she has potential of becoming. We will give her no less then our best and expect out of it nothing less then hers. That's what everyone needs to realize from this. We're not our best right now, but we will be."
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 10:51:54 GMT -5
!Rose nodded her head. "You have a point." Blah. "Do your best, I suppose."
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 10:58:00 GMT -5
AFR smiled... "It's for you, silly... of course I will. Besides Bianca and Dominic there is not another person I'd rather see succeed more then you... and not this way... in her own ways. She and you could be of legend... maybe too high a target, but at least in my mind she could." He just looked off in space. "Her only obstacle is herself as it always has been... just like me." They were best friends for a reason really. This was one of them. Together for a time they could hurdle the themselves obstacle.
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 11:05:45 GMT -5
"Very true." !Rose was thinking right about now.
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 11:17:13 GMT -5
AFR was off in his world of thought as well. "No matter what happens in the end... I just want her to be happy... when she is, I am. She doesn't need powers to change my mind and make me feel things I'm not... just a smile or two... that'll get me through most things. At least I'd like to think so. Maybe if I had a bit more time in this world of yours... even the pain of losing Bianca could have been lost in your smile in time."
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 11:20:01 GMT -5
!Rose shook her head. "That type of loss, cannot be cured so easily. I watched you suffer through that. I tried to help. I didn't get very far." She looked over at him once more.
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 11:29:07 GMT -5
AFR sadly nodded... "That's why she can't die... I don't want to lose her and my will... but I saw something out of myself respond to you at my worst... you thwarted about five suicide attempts... then they stopped for good. You gave me some hope and faith in the world... don't sell yourself short a dime, Rose. I would have been dead decades earlier if you weren't there for me." Bout now Rose should remember what !Kane said about his life span drastically reducing.
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 11:38:27 GMT -5
!Rose did indeed remember. She kinda patted his shoulder. She still sucked at being of any comfort.
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 11:48:07 GMT -5
Oddly enough... that act alone still helped AFR a lot. There was no one on this planet easier to please then AFR. He let out a small sigh and closed his eyes. He put his hand to hers... "Times like these the warmth of another person is all I need to go on. You never had to say stuff like I do constantly. Just you being here does it's own wonders."
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 11:48:59 GMT -5
She smiled slightly and shook her head.
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 11:55:34 GMT -5
AFR smiled back... "Hey, I got part of one." He did feel a lot better with it too. "She'll be fine and so will you..." He bit his lip... "Where the hell did Rose get a tattoo in the future?" Way up on the uptake AFR. She mentioned that like 20 minutes ago xD.
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 12:01:24 GMT -5
"She decided to have a mid life crisis." She smiled to herself
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 12:08:29 GMT -5
AFR smiled. "Well... that's certainly difficult for one with no defined age limit, but hell... everyone needs to have one... I remember mine... it... wasn't pretty." AFR's punk phase was not cute at all... neither was his attempt at a green mohawk...
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 12:12:31 GMT -5
"Oh I was there for it." !Rose shook her head. "I will never endure High School ever again."
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 12:16:15 GMT -5
AFR smirked... "So that was you... don't think I didn't see you all the time... quite honestly... I had a big crush on you then... I just never picked up the nerve to talk to you..." He then smiled again... "Shoulda saw Zs... he got all trekkie on us."
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Post by simplyKATEY. on Dec 13, 2009 12:20:58 GMT -5
!Rose looked genuinely surprised. "Huh." They were supposed to forget seeing her. So the fact that AFR remembered was surprising. "Hm." Maybe someone had figured something out. D: OHSHI. "Everyone had their interesting high school years."
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Post by kane on Dec 13, 2009 12:33:41 GMT -5
AFR shrugged. "When yours are as bland as mine was... someone like you coming along couldn't have been forgotten. I don't know... maybe I was just drawn to you by my attachment... if fate was in play maybe mine was a bit stronger that it didn't allow me to miss you."
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